Thursday, May 21, 2009

I Have Decided to Quit Blogging.

I’ve gotten a few notes and comments from regular readers asking if I’m okay and telling me that they miss my blog updates. Thank you. That is very sweet of all of you.

And while I don’t OWE you an explanation for my absence because after all this is my place on the web and I will do with it what I want, I will offer one out of friendship. Simply put, I burnt out. I was pressing everyday to find something to write about and stressing about whether my stats were climbing and if I was "good enough" to be a part of bloggy land at all. I was worried about whether you were enjoying my writing and was I funny enough? Why wouldn’t my meme take off and why didn’t I take more pictures this week for Wordless Wednesday? Who in the forums was reading my stuff and why wouldn’t more people comment? Why couldn’t my most controversial stances spark any kind of debate?

I was dreaming in blog people. I would wake up thinking blog and I would eat blog for lunch and I would blog while I was brushing my teeth. Not on the blog but in my head. I would wake up in the middle of the night to make notes about a dream because maybe when I was fully awake I could turn it into a roll em in the aisles post.

For some people that is a great thing. For some people that would be a rocking life. For me it was torture. I want to write. Just write. I don’t want to install meta tags and learn CSS code and HTML code and link all the right keywords. I don’t really care if Google finds me or not. I don’t necessarily want to make millions off of my blog. It would be nice if it happened but only if I can still be happy while I do it.

I just want to write. And that is what this started out as. A place for me to write. Then I got sidetracked with stats and comment counts and posting two or three times a day and making sure that I was friends with the right people in bloggy land and making sure that I didn’t offend or comment on the wrong blog because that would draw drama.

So I am going to quit blogging. I am just going to write. Here. When I feel like it and about what I want. The family stuff will still be found at The Zoo and the brain junk and social commentary will still be at The Bowl. But don’t expect me to update everyday. I don’t have THAT much to say.

I am no longer judging my success by stats, followers and page rank. I am purely judging my success by comments and my own happiness. If I can inspire you enough to cause you to comment then I have been successful. My biggest reward is forcing Buck to come out of his reader to comment. And that is what I want it to be all about. Just writing and sharing my writing with people who want to read.

Those of you who know me from some forums, give my regards. It’s not that I don’t like you or want to hang out with you. I just can’t get sucked back into all "stuff" that is blogging.
So farewell to blogging - welcome back writing.

**Note: For those of you who follow both, you will see this post cross posted today because the same audience is not in both places. Thanks for your tolerance.


wyndi said...

Follow your dreams and your heart. I know you have been stressing and thats not good. I always enjoy reading your blogs. So my advice to you is forget the blogs, go buy some old fashioned notebooks and write there for you.

Em said...

Get out of my head - seriously. This post is coming for me, rapidly. I started because I wanted to write as well - now I worry because I can't make enough rounds to comment on other blogs.

I adore the bloggy friends I have made, but yes, I totally get you, and this.

I've conquered my fear of having people actually read my thoughts - now I need to do something with them!

Good luck to you - Em

Funny Girl Goes Blog said...

I love your writing. Good luck to you.

Amy said...

I hope you enjoyed blogging while you did. Good luck to you.

Sissy said...

maybe you could have had your first sentence clear things up that you weren't in fact deleting your blog cuz I kinda had a mini panic attack there for a sec. thanksabunch! now that I've chewed you out, I'm so damn glad you're staying! I love love love you and I know I'm bad about commenting but I'll do better, just don't leave!

The Matriarch said...

I think that writing has got to be the most agonizing activity. I know the feeling of trying to keep up with daily posts. It can take forever to come up with a decent paragraph on some days. Once the writing is in your blood, it's hard to shake it out, but daily blogging is a little like applying leeches.